Fact: Yesterday SUCKED for me

Today is a new day and I am trying to have Faith that God will make things right. I am going to try and find the good in each situation. I am angry about a lot of things though, Ima get them off my chest because this is the place I can.

• Lexi lost her phone walking home from school. I am not angry with her. I am angry that she lost her birthday present and I can not afford to replace it. I am angry she has to be so sad. I am BLESSED she understands and is an amazing kid.
• Kysa's bus was late from tutoring yesterday and I thought she missed it and could not find her. I am angry when things with my kids are out of my control. I am angry there are scary people in the world that led me to have terrible thoughts. I am BLESSED and so thankful it was only a late bus and she is just fine SAFE and sound. I love my kids so much.
• Found out my phone bill is over $300 due to minutes overage, I could have paid an extra $30 for unlimited and didnt because I thought we wouldnt go over. I am angry for thinking that. I am angry at phone companies for gouging customers. I am BLESSED that we all can keep in touch so much easier than my parents could with me because of cellphones.
• My camera went missing with Kysa's birthday party pictures and many other family pictures that only we could treasure and mean so much more than a camera. We think someone who visited our home may have taken it. I am angry people steal. I am angry those memories are not going to be in print for my children to enjoy in the future. I am BLESSED that God is good and believing we will get it back.
• I fought with my husband out of frustration and anger. I am sorry for reacting so quickly.
• Read my husbands family members blogs which I normally no longer do. We had a falling out last year around this time when I questioned his Aunt & Uncle about their unwavering faith and wondered why they would leave some family members behind if they were so knowledgable in Gods word. Knowing all they know this is surely not right , right ? I told them how I felt in a respectful way in hopes we could talk it out work it out. His Aunt let me know I was wrong about everything, ungrateful - crossing the line and my husband was undeserving and not a favorite of anyones. After this all contact between our families ceased. We even got cut off the Christmas card list! I sent a card from our family to theirs still as that is just plain silly. I am angry at the reaction I got. I am angry his family has completely shut out our family for speaking of feelings rather than hearing me  or maybe meeting me to talk even. All families fight I guess, maybe I was wrong to ask and say how I felt ?
•  I am angry that his Uncle acts as if nothing ever happened when he talks with and sees my husband. I am angry that you can be so knowledgable of forgiveness and so unforgiving at the same time. I am angry it all made me question my faith. I am angry it still makes me angry.I am BLESSED that even with such small knowledge comparitvely, I know better.
• My twins have bad asthma and had to see the Doctor for the 3 times in as many weeks yesterday. They are now on two different meds each for breathing treatments. I am angry at germs and cold viruses that cause their immune systems to weaken. I am angry my babies are hurting. They are so innocent and pure this is unfair! I am BLESSED that they are otherwise completely healthy and I am sooooo grateful for that.
• My daughter Lexi got into an argument with a girl at school who kicked her out of the "group" for something silly and then proceeded to make a nasty comment about her weight in front of everyone. Clicks never end FYI, I've even see old lady clicks at retirement communities!! I am angry she has to go through this. I am angry she learned bad eating and excercise habits from me. I am BLESSED knowing she is very secure and strong and she will make it through regardless.
• I want to take my family home to Idaho because I miss my sister and her family, my Mom ,and my home. I am angry 6 tickets cost soooo much money. I am BLESSED in knowing we will get their eventually.
• I am angry at rising Gas and food prices and no cost of living increases- UGHHHHH !!!
• Finally, I am angry that I feel so much anger !!!!! I do not like it Sam I am. So, I am putting it out there to try and release and let it all go-I may also scream a little later.

Happy Hump Day ?