Fact: I lost a friend to suicide yesterday

His name was Sam. He was an old friend from my high school days that I hadnt seen in sometime. I loved his big amazing smile and long dark spiral curls. He had a surfers nature, a free spirit, a yearning to experience the world and be at one with it, a big heart that would help anyone and give them the last he had, he was too good for this. Anyone is too good for suicide. No one knew he was having trouble, he hid it so well.

I know how it works as I hide my pain very well also, and have had my own terribly dark depressing times. The feeling so alone, no one understanding, wanting to end the pain, wanting to just STOP the bleeding.It is all very selfish, but in a depression you just don't see it like that.
I am so very sad to know that he was hurting in this way, hurting even worse to actually carry out the plan. So very sad that his family will blame themselves, always wondering what they could have done to stop him. So very sad the world has to continue without this Kindred soul. I pray for you my old friend, I pray for your family, I am sorry you felt so alone.

Anyone feeling this way please know there are MANY people that have you on their minds today, you may not know it or feel it but suicide is never the answer, MANY people love you, you are not alone and someone wants to help you. http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

God Bless you brother, may you Rest in Peace

We will see you on the other side.