Fact: I am Pro-Life...ish

First off, Id like to thank the Mothers of people in my life that chose to give life to the babies growing in their wombs. First and foremost, Myself -17 and pregnant. Thank you very much. My mother also 17 and pregnant whom kept my sister Elise. Thank you very much. My husbands mother, Thank you very much. And many others whom may have struggled but never shared, Thank you very much.
Let me explain. I have always believed that if you choose to have an abortion that is your decision, its just not for me. I still belive that to an extent, however I do not think it is so black and white. If a woman were raped for instance; I believe 100%  if she wants one, she should get one, stat ! Now, if you took the chance consentually with a partner unprotected, well to me its a "meant to be" type thing. Not to mention, your own damn fault for being ignorant. HELLO, if you dont catch a baby you may catch a crab. Mess with the birds and bees, you may get the HIV !! DUH ! Then, there is the case of an underage girl. I, being the mother of several girls, am very afraid of this one. I pray and pray that the cycle be broken with me, that my girls (and boy) go on to finish college before pursuing a family. But, Ive been there, I was 17. YOUNG AND DUMB. Boy is that ever a true statement. Dont get me wrong now, I love my daughter Alexis. I wanted my daughter, she was no mistake , none of my kids were. They are all divine gifts from the Lord in my belief system. But literally. I was in a fog of young heated twitterpation and I knew I would have the cutest baby and HE thought it would be a good way to keep me around. Therefore, we used no protection, on purpose. And that was that, I wanted a cute babyso it was fine. Beyond that I had'nt thought much about life the next 20+ years and how I would/could provide for said cute baby.
                      Next, there is my husband. His mother was a mere 13 years old when she got pregnant with him. He has always said how thankful he is that his Grandmother made sure he was kept. As we all know, in the 70's (shit, even now) being 13 and pregnant brings serious stigma and most would have " taken care of it" with no one being the wiser.
                      Then, there are our girls. What if this were to happen to them right now? One 15 and one 14. I mean, I was "sexually active" as an unsupervised teen while my parental figures worked so its not rocket science, it can happen to anyone. Lord, I hope not me! How could we handle it?! I would be so hurt, so shocked, so saddened, feel so like I had failed, so ready to "take care of it"! YIKES.
                                 Is this how my Dad felt ?  Here we go again with the Hindsight is 20/20 and the "You'll understand one day"  understanding. I truly dont know what I would do. I am glad my husbands mother kept him I really give her family credit as it must have been a trying time. Sadly though,  I dont think I would want the same for my daughter. Is that so terrible? Maybe it is. Surely I will adore my grandbabies...AFTER I am in my 50's, not now. I continue to pray the cycle is broken with me, pray that we wont ever have to meet this challenge head to head, God Bless those who do. I can only imagine.